Confession Friday

I confess that last week I caught myself scolding Addis for goofing off at the table and I felt like a huge hyprocrite. I have very particular ideas about table manners. Perhaps I'm a bit too rigid and expect too much from a baby. However, the rules are as follows: you stay at the table until everyone is done eating, no phone calls during dinner, chew with your mouth closed, no feeding the dogs from the table, no throwing food, dinner time is not play time. Addis was a little full of the silly bug that day and he was acting accordingly. He was happily entertaining my parents and sister. I caught myself telling him to knock it off and then realized I had broken the rules myself. I had spent most of dinner texting with someone. In my defence, there was an extenuating circumstance that led to the text conversation, however, it was still against the rules. I think mommy might have to spend time in the corner or on the naughty step.  I can't very well enforce the rules if I don't follow them myself.

I confess that I went shopping.  I bought my first pair of skinny jeans.  Not sure I have any business wearing them but... I'm going to give it a try.  I made my friend check out my butt to make sure it looked good and not like and animal fighting to get out of a burlap sack.

I confess that I also bought 2 pairs of really great boots.

I confess that I went in to work today for a quick visit and it felt good to have everyone seem so happy to see me.  I have worried over the past few months that life has just marched on without me.

I confess that I am really excited about Halloween.  Addis will be dressed up like a dragon.  Funny enought, his cousin has the same exact costume.  I'm looking forward to getting photos of Addis and my neice and nephew together.

I confess since Addis is so little and can't eat candy, Brian and I will be raiding his stash. 

I confess we had a good day at the pumpkin patch last Sunday.  We have some great family photos and some great photos of Addis.  I hope we have started a new faily tradition.

I confess that I am feeling very sentimental on the eve of our referral anniversary.  I'm not sure what we are going to do to commemerate the occasion but I did buy a bottle of the same champagne that our friends bought for us last year to celebrate.  We will toast to the beautiful little boy who has filled our hearts. 

I confess that I was surprised yesterday with photos that were taken that day.  I was laughing and crying tears of pure joy.  Beside me was one of my good friends who supported me through so many dark times.  She was also laughing and crying.  Around us were about twenty of our co-workers.  Tomorrow I will take some time to write about our referral.

I confess that tonight I will indulge in a little "after Addis has gone to bed" treat.  I have a bag of double hit caramel popcorn from kernels that I can't wait to dig into.  YUM!!!! 

I confess that I have been worried that Addis doesn't seem to talk very much.  He babbles ALL the time.  In fact this babbling makes Brian and I and our family laugh everytime we hear it, but Addis doesn't use words very often.  It's a lot of grunting and pointing.  I have come to realize that Addis is very lazy about talking.  Sometimes I worry if that's a reflection on me as a mom.  Am I doing enough?  I know he has the ability to talk, he just doesn't want to.  I try to get him to say certain words and he looks at me as if to say "I'm not your dog and pony show".  Sometimes I find myself wondering if he has these words and the ability to say them yet, then I hear him say the exact words I've been trying to get him to say when HE needs the words so I know he CANm he just doesn't WANT to.  So I am at a loss for what to do now.  Do I continue to get him things just because I know what he is trying to tell me or do I make him ask for what he wants?  I have learned over the past little while that Addis has the comprehension so I am at a crossroads.  What is in his best interest?  I would love to hear your thoughts on this subject.  (I have received feedback that some people are having trouble leaving me a comment so if you have a comment and can't post, please email at jax-oz@hotmail.com or send me a message on facebook)