Confession Friday

I confess that last week I caught myself scolding Addis for goofing off at the table and I felt like a huge hyprocrite. I have very particular ideas about table manners. Perhaps I'm a bit too rigid and expect too much from a baby. However, the rules are as follows: you stay at the table until everyone is done eating, no phone calls during dinner, chew with your mouth closed, no feeding the dogs from the table, no throwing food, dinner time is not play time. Addis was a little full of the silly bug that day and he was acting accordingly. He was happily entertaining my parents and sister. I caught myself telling him to knock it off and then realized I had broken the rules myself. I had spent most of dinner texting with someone. In my defence, there was an extenuating circumstance that led to the text conversation, however, it was still against the rules. I think mommy might have to spend time in the corner or on the naughty step.  I can't very well enforce the rules if I don't follow them myself.

I confess that I went shopping.  I bought my first pair of skinny jeans.  Not sure I have any business wearing them but... I'm going to give it a try.  I made my friend check out my butt to make sure it looked good and not like and animal fighting to get out of a burlap sack.

I confess that I also bought 2 pairs of really great boots.

I confess that I went in to work today for a quick visit and it felt good to have everyone seem so happy to see me.  I have worried over the past few months that life has just marched on without me.

I confess that I am really excited about Halloween.  Addis will be dressed up like a dragon.  Funny enought, his cousin has the same exact costume.  I'm looking forward to getting photos of Addis and my neice and nephew together.

I confess since Addis is so little and can't eat candy, Brian and I will be raiding his stash. 

I confess we had a good day at the pumpkin patch last Sunday.  We have some great family photos and some great photos of Addis.  I hope we have started a new faily tradition.

I confess that I am feeling very sentimental on the eve of our referral anniversary.  I'm not sure what we are going to do to commemerate the occasion but I did buy a bottle of the same champagne that our friends bought for us last year to celebrate.  We will toast to the beautiful little boy who has filled our hearts. 

I confess that I was surprised yesterday with photos that were taken that day.  I was laughing and crying tears of pure joy.  Beside me was one of my good friends who supported me through so many dark times.  She was also laughing and crying.  Around us were about twenty of our co-workers.  Tomorrow I will take some time to write about our referral.

I confess that tonight I will indulge in a little "after Addis has gone to bed" treat.  I have a bag of double hit caramel popcorn from kernels that I can't wait to dig into.  YUM!!!! 

I confess that I have been worried that Addis doesn't seem to talk very much.  He babbles ALL the time.  In fact this babbling makes Brian and I and our family laugh everytime we hear it, but Addis doesn't use words very often.  It's a lot of grunting and pointing.  I have come to realize that Addis is very lazy about talking.  Sometimes I worry if that's a reflection on me as a mom.  Am I doing enough?  I know he has the ability to talk, he just doesn't want to.  I try to get him to say certain words and he looks at me as if to say "I'm not your dog and pony show".  Sometimes I find myself wondering if he has these words and the ability to say them yet, then I hear him say the exact words I've been trying to get him to say when HE needs the words so I know he CANm he just doesn't WANT to.  So I am at a loss for what to do now.  Do I continue to get him things just because I know what he is trying to tell me or do I make him ask for what he wants?  I have learned over the past little while that Addis has the comprehension so I am at a crossroads.  What is in his best interest?  I would love to hear your thoughts on this subject.  (I have received feedback that some people are having trouble leaving me a comment so if you have a comment and can't post, please email at jax-oz@hotmail.com or send me a message on facebook) 

Confession Friday

I confess I have been worried about a friend all week.  Honey, you are never far from my mind.  I hope you get well soon.

I confess that Addis has entered a hitting phase.  I don't care for it.  He gets frustrated and he hits things.  Me, the dogs, the wall, etc.  I"m already looking forward to the day we leave this phase behind. 

I confess that I spent the day with my family.  My brother brought over my niece and nephew to play with Addis.  My parents and sister joined us.  We watched the Lion King twice and probably pulled out every single toy Addis owns.  We ate hot dogs for lunch.  It was a lot of fun.  When it was time for my brother and the kids to go my niece shouted "I come back again. Ok?"  I told her she was welcome anytime.

I confess that this morning started out terribly.  I had dealt with 4 tantrums before I was even up a half hour.  We've been dealing with quite a few tantrums lately.  A certain someone gets bent out of shape when they don't get their way and proceeds to make angry noises at me. 

I confess that while today did not start out wonderful, I was able to look on the bright side.  It made me realize how far I have come recently in how I am feeling.  While Addis was shrieking at the top of his lungs and crying, I was able to find my Patient Mommy voice instead of dissolving into tears myself.  I say this is progress!!

I confess that I have a zillion clothes, most of which I don't wear (too big, too small, out of fashion, etc) but I do not seem to have the ability to throw them out.  I can purge plenty of other items from the house but just can't seem to part with my clothes.  I think I need an intevention.  I need a support group,  Heck, I'm close to needing those people from that disturbing show Hoarders to come in.  This is a cry for help!

I confess that I just finished the book Secret Daughter tonight.  I laughed. I cried. I identified.  Good read.

I confess that I am staring down a mountain of laundry tonight. 

I confess that at the Oktoberfest parade this past Monday I ran like a scared little girl at the first sight of a clown.  Things went from bad to worse when I was fiddling with the camera and looked up to see a clown staring me right in the face trying to hug Addis (I was holding him in my lap).  I just about peed my pants.  I think I am still trauamtized.  Seriously, why do they have to ruin a perfectly nice event like a parde by including clowns.  Can I get an amen?

I confess that I am addicted to my Blackberry.  I've only had it for just over a month and I realized this.  I am like Pavlovs dog.  The blackberry dings and I start looking to see how emailed, texted or bbm'd me.

I confess I went to see a movie last night.  It was nice to get out of the house.  I was a little reluctent at first to go to the movie because it was the remake of Footloose.  Let's keep it real here, that's a classic, it doesn't need redoing.  However, my sister had free tickets so I thought, what the heck, it's a chance to eat some popcorn and get out.  At least I'd enjoy the soundtrack, right?  I The movie turned out to be pretty decent.  I think the trick was to keep an open mind and take it at face value.  I LOVED the actor they cast for the part of Willard.  He was a favourite character in the original and in my opinion is even better in the remake.  I especially loved the scene where he's learning to dance.

Confession Friday - Thanksgiving Edition

I confess I am truly grateful this Thanksgiving. 

I confess the last few years of holidays have been very difficult and for the first time in years I am finally looking forward to a holiday and won't have to plaster a phony smile on my face to hide the pain.  No more fake it till you make it.  A genuine holiday smile will be on my face.

I'm very excited to have Addis home to share with him our holiday traditions and to start a few new ones.

I confess we have a very busy weekend ahead of us.

I confess that Saturday we will go to Grand Bend and spend the day with Brian's parents.  We always have our Thanksgiving dinner with them on Saturday.  They camp at the Scout Camp in Grand Bend with some friends and everyone gets together for dinner.  There is turkey and mashed potatoes and each family provides a side dish or dessert potluck style.  It's so peaceful up there.  It is probably our dogs favourite place to be. 

I confess that I am hosting Thanksgiving dinner for my family.  Since we now have a bigger house, we can comfortably accomodate people on holidays.  I am excited to cook the turkey.  It will only be my second attempt.

I confess I love stuffing.  So much in fact that I once stabbed my brother's hand with my fork for trying to steal my stuffing.  Luckily I didn't do any damage and it's now a running family joke.  Ange doesn't share stuffing!

I confess I am really thankful for the beautiful weather we will be having for the next 5 days.  The tempurature will be in the 20's.  Apparently those are record tempuratures for October.

I confess that since the weather will be so nice I will be taking Addis to the local Thanksgiving parade.

I confess this is a big deal for me because I'm terrified of clowns and NEVER go anywhere that I know I will see a clown.  However, I don't want my fears to be projected on Addis so I will just have to find my big girl panties.  Addis loves seeing lots of people and music so this should be right up his alley.

I confess that after the parade we are going to take Addis to Oktoberfest Family Day.  I have very fond memories of going to Family Day with my parents and siblings.  I think my favourite memory is dancing the polka with my dad.  I am so happy to carry on this family tradition.

I confess that my mom started a family tradition a few years ago where we go around the table and say what we are thankful for.  I will continue this tradition at my table.  And this year when it's my turn I will say that I am thankful for my dogs who love me unconditionally, my family who stood by me in completing our adoption, my husband who is my very best friend and my son who is pure joy.

Happy Thanksgiving!  May you all have something to be thankful for.