Confession Friday

I confess that I didn't confess last week because I was sick.  I had strep throat, again.  According to my doctor it isn't common for adults to get strep throat so close together (I had it in June and again in September) and I must just like to be different.  I had a fever of 103 degrees for a few days.  I am on a very strong round of penicilin.

I confess that we are enjoying a fire tonight.  We have a wood burning fireplace in our new house and it's cool enough tonight that we can enojy a fire.  I love the smell of a wood fire.  It's making me want to grab some marshmallows!

I confess that I have been speaking with someone about how I've been feeling.  It's been really helpful to get my thoughts organized.  My brain has been very busy for a while now and it's been hard to make sense of everything I've been thinking and feeling.  I've learned a lot about myself already.  Apparently my expectations of myself are too high and nobody could live up to them.  I've also learned that the past few years have made me a "glass is half empty" kind of person and that's not how I want to be so I need to be aware of this and try to change my outlook.  I need to be aware of the little voice inside and change it from being "the critic" to being "the friend".  This has really helped me clear my head.  I'm on the way to feeling more like me.

I confess that I love to people watch.  When my grandparents would come visit from England, my grandmother, my mother, my sister and I all use to love spending time in the airport, when it was time for my grandparents to go home, and people watch.  We would make up stories about who we thought these people were and where they were going or where they came from.  To this day I love people watching. 

I confess that the past few weeks has been a "mixed bag" but Addis and I have had a few really good weeks.  Addis is starting to understand things a little more and I am learning to let some things go.

I confess that I lost a good friend this week to cancer.  It was a total shock and I'm still trying to process it.  I have been thinking about blogging my thoughts and feelings about this but, right now I'm just not ready to share.  I will say that my friend and her family have been on my mind since I heard the news.  I am deeply saddened by this loss.

I confess that we bought Addis a Halloween costume this week.  He's going to look soooooooo cute.  I am really looking forward to Halloween this year.  I can't to dress him up and take pictures and bring him to our friends and neighbours houses.  Addis had a lot of fun trying on costumes.  He really does look adorable.

I confess that I have finally started reading a book that is not just "a good beach read".  I have a bunch of books that I ordered that are more thought provoking and I have just started the first one.  This book is called "The Help".  I'm about half way through and really enjoying it.

I confess that part of why I'm not feeling mysef lately is because I have let nutrition and exercise fall by the wayside.  I have talked about this is past blogs but it's time to stop talking and start doing.  I need to start keeping track of what I'm eating again and commit to at least 4 days of exercise a week.  I have no idea how to work this in, but I know that I need to find a way.  Can someone please check in next week and see if I'm doing what I said I would.  I'm one of those people that needs to be accountable to someone else to get started and into a good routine.  I think this is something else I need to work on.

I confess that I am excited that the new fall season of tv watching is starting.  I really am a huge couch potato.

I confess that while I really love the Fall, I'm sad that the Summer is over.  I have never had a Summer fly by so quickly.  Oh well, you can't stop the changing of the seasons so I might as well get on board.  I do love being able to wear jeans and a t-shirt and be comfortable.  I love Fall camping.  Hopefully we will be able to find at least one more weekend to camp before it gets too cold.  I love the crisp weather that comes with the Fall.  I love the holidays and events that happen in the Fall - Oktoberfest, Thanksgiving and Halloween. 

I confess that Addis has been sleeping through the night now for a while (Amen) but the past few nights Addis has been really unsettled.  I don't know if he's growing again and is suffering from growing pains or if it's something else.  I hope that things settle soon.

I confess that I am hoping to incorporate bedtime stories into our bedtime routine soon,  I will wait until until Addis is a little more settled again but I want to introduce books to him soon.  I have tried introducing books before but he wasn't interested but, recently he has shown an interest in books and I really want to nuture that interst.  I personally love reading and want to pass that passion on to my son. 

I confess that tonight I spent a great deal of my time putting together two toys for Addis.  These were toys I had bought a long time ago but was waiting to bring out until we were in the new house and had more space.  I got to snap together, screw together and sticker the Little People playsets.  I use to love Little People and hope that Addis feels the same.  It;s a part of my childhood I want to share with him.